Scanxiety

may this give strength to another family facing a road block. you are not alone.

 Goodmorning self,

As you sit on the couch and drink your coffee you can't help but think of your husband. He is off getting his 10th CT scan with contrast by  the nearest hospital. The routine scans started at the very beginning of 2015 when he was first diagnosed with cancer to check for any malignant cells. They continued after surgery as a surveillance monitoring effort. You remember when he was going in to have the tumor removed and then when he graduated to being post operative. That seemed like a big undertaking and you did it together. To every 3 months and then from every 3 months to 6 months. Then only 1 year ago graduating to being on annual surveillance scans. 

"we will see you back in another year."

This is it. The scan is happening at this very moment. This is the longest he has gone without a scan as a son, brother, husband, father and friend living with a recent diagnosis of the scary word- cancer.

​This statement from your husband's doctor keeps playing over and over again in your head, "We need to monitor him for 3 years. With his diagnosis, until we hit that 3 year mark he is not cancer free." You're doing the best that you can. Doing everything that you can to think positively and trusting in the Lord. So what is it that scares you? Is it the new road that you might be routed down?

Life is full of wrong turns and Y's in the roads. Remember when he received his cancer diagnosis in 2015? That was a Y in the road with a road block in one direction. Your family was forced to move forward on the road to recovery. 

Look at how far you have come.

You will hear the results later this week at his follow up appointment. No matter where this road in life takes you remember that you have been given the gift of each other. You are his person and he is your person. You will walk through any unexpected circumstance with strength and unity. You will not be consumed by the questions and statements that are trying to fill your thoughts. For this is 'Scanxiety' 

Dictionary Definition: Scanxiety (n) “scan zi et ee”: Anxiety and worry that accompanies the period of time before undergoing or receiving the results of a medical examination (such as MRI or CT scan).

you will trust in the lord with all of your heart.

Keep being brave and loving well. Have a little faith for this road is full of brighter days to come.

With love.